JAJoanne

Ahbeng, ahlian.

2011-01-10T17:06:00.003+08:00

Woots, as you can see. I'm Super DUPER busy nowadays till i have no time to even bloggg. Buttttt, today is special. I shall bloggg. Not trying to say ahbeng and ahlian cannot be together. Is like.. the ahbeng need so desperate mah? Then the ahlian broke up not even like 1 week there she found another one. Lol.. This is NONSENSE. HAHAHA! Why do people like to hong? I really don't understand. Hong people very fun meh? This is the so lame can... When you grow older, you will know what i meant. Maybe you would want to slap me(for girls) and you would even want use knife to stab me(for boys). But seriously. Think properly before doing silly things. And also when you grow older, as you look back, you will think this is so foolish of you. Haha. So think before doing anything rashly. If not when you grow older, you will seriously regret what you've done. WAIT WAIT WAIT! BACK TO MY TOPIC. Buttt horrr, people out there, just listen to me? Maybe i'm nothing to you guys, but as you grow older, maybe you will want to thank me for saving you guys in a writing manner? Lol, okays. Seriously back to topic. So yeah, i feel that they are very lame. What to do? Haha. Maybe shall keep some for tomorrow too? haha, okays. Off to batheee then homeworks. :)

JAJoanne- Mixed Feeling. :S

LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2010-12-09T17:00:00.003+08:00

Soooo long never blog already,yeah? Haha,when to youth camp. It's like super funnnnn! But we had to do the star jump! Eeks! My leggg still hurts. ): But afterall one word to describe -FUNNNNNNNN-! :D!

Sometimes,things doesn't go your way you thing that it is unfair while others might have some things going their way. Butttttttttt,it's not the thing doesn't want to. It is because God wants the best for you. Sometimes people you are close with hurt you. You think NEGATIVELY, and you want the fastest way to solve and that is to DIE. You guys should think more POSITIVELY. Time heals all wound,but it's also the hardest medicine to take. Some wound takes like a few weeks or months. But some really bad wound takes really long time like years and years to really heal it. Maybe that's all for today.

JAJoanne-Love his cute smile,love the way he do all things. :D

23rd day...

BYE NOVEMBER,HELLO DECEMBER! :D

2010-12-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO NOVEMBER,BYE DECEMBER!

HOPE IT'S A GOOD MONTH! :DDDDD

JAJoanne-Don't know whether to be sad,or to be happy. Haiz.

This is Life.

2010-11-30T11:26:00.005+08:00

Ohyeah,i'm here to blogg again. I was super to blogg on Sunday. BUTTTTT , the HTML is wont let me blog. Wah,heng. My post wasnt delete. Cause internet connection lost. Had to restart com. Haha.Hmmm,this few days have been alright... But wasnt playing much cause had to do this and that for mum. So...yeah. Do housework,do thing,clean this and that. And very tired lo. Have been thinking alot lately. Have been missing you lately. Have been talking to you lately too. I really miss you very very much. How i wish i could hugg you. ):

Whenever someone is upset,they want the fastest and quickest solution to solve it. And yes,is very easy,I WANT DIE. And yes,some people did,cause they never take good use of their brain. And so,they went to cut themselves,jump down the building,jump into the sea and all sorts of method that could die. But why? Why do they always think of the negative side but not the positive side? Some people are like me. Sometimes we claimed that we want to die but as we look back,all the good memories we had with our family is so memorable. If we want to die just because of the little things we've gone through, why would God even want you to be in this world? Every child that is born in this world have to do the tasks that God has just assigned us and slowly we come to this world,complete our tasks and Back to God,complete our tasks and once again Back to God. That's why everybody in the world Have to Born and Die then Reborn and die. This is Life. Life be very Beautiful,it's whether you want to Live it to the fullest anot. So...yeah. I decided to carry on with my life. And that's because........ I use my brain to think. If not,i'll use my BUTTBUTT to think. Shall continue this topic "This is Life." the next time i bloggg. :D Readers,be more POSITIVE than being NEGATIVE okays? Love you guys! And i know you guys love me! :D

JAJoanne-Missing you very much. 15th day.... And iloveyou. (:

Uhyes,what a day!

2010-11-24T23:03:00.004+08:00

Uhyes,what a day! 4 hours of choir practice for today... Tired to the max. Keep on singing that few songs. Boring okays. But it's alright. Cause tomorrow is the performance!!! Zzz,siansss! Yeah,nobody is coming to support me. While other people have friends to. Sians. Talk to You-Jung and Dawndawn the whole day. Can't believe it man. AHA! We keep laughing like mad girls. AHA! Super funny luh. Lovethem! <3>

*Haizzz,i guess life is not getting better... Is getting worst. And i lived 9 days without you. imyvm. Now not having friends it's alright anyway... Cause i have you thats enough. I can talk to you anytime and anywhere i want. I can tell you everything that i want to tell. Things that i have been keeping it as a secret i can also tell you. Since i have you,i guess you will help me when i need you? I guess not having friend is also alright?

Maybe i should stop blogging now...

JAJoanne-It's been 9 days....and....imyvmmmm. And ily. -Not in a mood-

SO BE IT,WHATSOEVER SHIT.

2010-11-23T22:46:00.004+08:00

Ya lah,everything also blame on me. -.- Everything my fault kay? I say something "someone" will ask me shut up, "someone" will take it serious when i'm just play. Friends also lah. Friends also no use. Make me angry only -.-. Talk want talk sua lah. I DONT NEED FRIENDS OKAYS. I KEEP IT ALL TO MYSELF BEST. I OWNSELF DEPRESSION,OWNSELF HIDE SOMEWHERE DIE THEY WILL BE EVEN HAPPY. FINE FINE FINE! They so be it,okays. THEN "SOMEONE"? ONLY KNOW HOW GIVE ME FACE. YEAH YEAH YEAH. I MAKE YOU GUYS ANGRY. YEAH? WHEN I AM COOL DOWN,YOU GUYS COME AND MAKE ME SAD. WHEN I TALK YOU GUYS SAY I TALK TOO MUCH. I DONT TALK YOU GUYS THINKS I ANGRY OR WHATSOEVER SHIT. FINE. SO BE IT KAYS. I WILL BE SOMEONE WHO HAS NO FEELINGS. Okays? Good enough?

Sometimes i wonder why you didnt bring me with you..... imyvm... ):

JAJoanne-Feel like dying. ):

IMYVM!

2010-11-22T22:38:00.005+08:00

Haha,many things can happen in just this whole week. Yes,many things did happened. The things that happened made me really heartbroken. Yes,i'm upset. But on the other hand i'm happy. "something cant be said". Haha. Finally i uploaded the pictures. Pictures will do the talking? Not in a mood to bloggg. Sorry,readers. I hope to have your understanding. (: Love you guys.

JAJoanne-Sadded,imyvm.

2010-11-15T12:03:00.003+08:00

Today,have choir.... 8a.m to 10a.m. Damn early can. ._. Now still super tired. Do the warm up's and things keep on yawning. Keep playing with You Jung lah. HAHAH! We keep laughing and playing. Somemore i late. Forget to bring jacket somemore. I was about to freeze to death can. Super duper cold. After choir finish liaoo,went out of the room then walk with You Jung..... Then sit at the bus stop... DONNY CAME. AHHAHAH! I did something real silly,i said "Donny." He turned over. "Byebye!" *A Lame face. Then went home. Here i am to bloggg. Aha. There's something urgent to settle. Bloggggg later BYES!

2010-11-14T22:21:00.003+08:00

Went out with @QinYuTan today. HAHAHAH! With Boyyy,AhZhu&&YiLong. Errmmm,was suppose to meet at 11.30 at paya lebar. But change to AMK Hub. Then i took a bus to Eunos meet deardear,theni reached there liao. We took 25 to AMK Hub. Meet AhBoy at 77th street. I SAW AHZHU,YILONG,SHERYL. OMFG CAN. LIKE SO SHOCKING LUH. I forgot AhBoy know them.. SO...yeah.. We wanted to eat Mac. But Mac alot of people. So we ate Subway. Super hua de lai can! HAHAHA! Then some random people come find AhBoy's taiji. AhBoy ask Dear help him. Hengheng. I was a good day today. Never scold people o! :D hehe. Then we slack around AMK Hub lo.... AhZhu still as cute as last time :D Haha,then went to Tampines with Deardear alone. Cause they all uh...dont want follow us leh. ): HAHAH! But nevermind. After tampines we still went to Bugis. Wallk walk. Take neoprint. This time the neoprint was a sucess can! Super cute. HAHAHAH! Shall upload the pictures later or tomorrow if Deardear upload its. :D

JAJoanne ; HeartZiJie.

It's been long since i blogged!

2010-11-10T13:46:00.003+08:00

Okays,it has been long since i really blogged. Hmmmmm,today,Choir started at 8a.m. can. Damn tired. I want considering of skipping BUT the performance is just around the corner so.... Can't skips lo. And my two instructor didnt turned up. It was a relief instructor... Hmmm,his quite cuteee. AHAHAHHAHA! I siao liao! Keep talking and talking non-stop in choir. Hmmm,can say today was alright. But the good thing is.... actually choir was suppose to start at 8 and end at 11 butttttttt! The instructor was in a hurry to *somewhere* and choir ended at about 10. So i went home.... help mum do things... and there! I'm now here blogging! Hehe :D. Eating lunch now.

Lovessss,JAJoanne.

Have You Ever,

2010-08-23T20:55:00.003+08:00

Have you ever lived my life?
Spent one minute in my shoes?
If you haven't then tell me why.
You judge me as you do.

Have you ever woken up in the morning
Wondering if this was your last day on Earth?
Have you ever left your house
Unsure if you'd return?

Have you ever seen your friend gt shot
Outside his/her favourite store?
Have you ever seen a friend die
From drugs he'd never used before?

Have you ever seen your mom get beat up
By your stepdad messed up on booze?
Have you ever had an unwanted pregenancy
Forcing you to choose?

Have you ever sat beneath the stars
Hoping God will hear?
Have you ever seen your friend drive away
After way too many beers?

Have you ever have friend
Experiment with weed?
Have you ever covered up guilt
By doing a good deed?

Have you ever considered suicide
As the only way?
Have you ever tried to hide yourself
Behind the things you say?

Haveyou ever wanted to protect
Your friends and everyone in sight?
Have you ever felt such pain
That you cried yourself to sleep at night?

Have you ever lived my life
Spent one minute in my shoes?
If you haven't , then tell me why
You judge me as you do.

Jays just made my mood gone bad,moodswing today. -.-

2010-08-17T18:15:00.004+08:00

Today seems to be a bad day for me.. Everything is like upsidedown. P.E we had like a kind of boxing,i punch as hard as i could is like as if Jays want infront of me. Mr Ong saw me doing that... Then Jays kept looking at me. Is like what does he wants from me lah,see see see, not happy tell me lah. Then art.. I didnt really do anything i was helping teacher to do things. Then i suddenly just become emo-ed. Then recess , i went to changed out my outfit and put my shirt in my bagg and went to find Baby , jia and alice. I didnt really talk. I dont know why. I seemed to be like odd one out. Then after recess went back to class,i emo-ed again~ Until afterschool. Then "chin'' add on to the fire -.- .. He made just stayed back. Ohhdamn. Whatever he says i just dont understand. Alot of things also never teach in primary school. Then i kept quiet... Jays added on to the fire... Jays say want help QiFan carry bagg?! Wth -.- . Mai act act infront of me. Then after school waited for Baby,Alice and Nadya because they had remedial and we already planned to go sing-post today.. So wait lo.. Then wait liao jia say had to go home so everybody just go home lo. And what's wrong with me? i like damn angry for nothing.. -.-

Joanne-JA , ♥

I'm sorry if i offended you. If i did,i'm really sorry.
Maybe i'm just too petty to share my friend with other people. I'm just too selfish sometimes.

It's the end.

2010-08-12T16:53:00.003+08:00

Everything seems to end to fast like the wind. I hate going through things like this. It takes alot of time to solve it and i had to pretend nothing actually happened. But somehow i know Yu , Jia , Nadya and Alice is there for me when i need them. They'll help me in things that is hard for me to face and solve. They often make me laughs like hell and makes me smiles. I love them. They're like my medicine. After seeing them they'll just heal me in no time. I love being with them. Just had a *ehem ehem* with *ehem ehem* .. Dont ask me about it anymore. He asked fo a break up first.. What can i do? Love cant be forced. So i had to agree with him.. But i still love him.. He wont know how much i really loved him even though i seems to be negalating him lately. Everytime see him with *that woman* i feel damn jealous is *that woman* that makes me really very jealous. Whatever. There's no point saying this anymore. Although i loves him alot , if his heart isnt with me , what can i do?

Joanne ; JA , ♥

*LOVEDIEJAYAN*.

*Saddieme after *ehem* with *ehem ehem*. ): TT

I love you , and i really do . Why cant you just believe me this once ?

2010-08-09T14:48:00.004+08:00

Dear God , will you help me ? I really do need your help . I really wished that my boy would ever believe me , at least for once ? Why is he giving me that look when i'm really telling the truth . Once again , i love you no matter what . I want your attitude to be like how you are now . 我真的没有你想像中的那么勇敢和坚强。我真的是很爱你，我有可能疏忽你了，是我的错对不起，原谅我好吗？

The 100 Hours can make you in the next 6 or 7 years to University , or , Your choice choose to play computer games for that 100 hours and level ?

2010-06-30T22:39:00.004+08:00

This few days have been working very hard . Hardly online nowadays . Maybe after homeworks still got time thn relieve stress norh . Haizzz , must work hard with my dearest DongHo . Dont really think i can cope with my sci . Seriously , totally give up on my science . Haizzz , maybe i should try again ? Hmmmm , okays . I'll see . Hmmm , going sleep soon . Its getting late . Goodnight my dear friends .

Miracle ! I actually decided to blogg again .

2010-06-26T21:59:00.004+08:00

Hoho , back to blogging again . The yellow shirt is DONGHO my favourite guy . ♥ Haizz , school going reopen le . Need more hardworking le , can be so playful le . Brand new semester , brand new term and a brand new me (: . (Y) . :D I had a new haircut and i've become abit more mature . Maybe i might nto look like mature but look mature doesnt mean is mature mahs . Like me outside look not very mature inside alsonot so childish mahs . (: Dont judge a book by its cover . You'll never noe :D . Okays , no relationship now ? Haha , when love come cannot stop de mahs , thn love havent come thn i just study hard bahs ! :D GAMBATTE , Joanne Love DongHo ! :D WEI LE JIANG LAI DE I-KISS WO HUI NU LI ! U-Kiss(boys)>>>I-Kiss(girls)>>>WE-Kiss :D . Hoho , jyjy ! Hao bah i go audi le :D .

♥ Joanne Love DongHo ♥

*Happy me , DongHo appeared in my life :D !*♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ !

At school now (:

2010-05-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

Haha , no D&T for today . Teacher actually noe that we wanted to use the computer so he booked it (: . So now i'm using our school's computer level one yellow room near the library . (: Sitting with Umairah(darlinq) . I"M DAMN COLD NOW . THE AIR-CON HERE IS FREEZING MEEEEE ! But not bad lahs later going back class thn become like damn hot and sleepy . Later english lesson we're going to play games . (: Omgawh i so gonna miss Ms Joylynn Lim . She's going to teacher Primary school . But heng i've got her Hotmail and Facebook later going to ask for her HP No. (: . Maybe thats all ? My hand now freeziing !!!! Need jacket now . Haha . Okays lahs maybe blogg till here . (: Go home blogg again . Thn i will write about the games we play in the english class . I will ask teacher say can take picture anot if can i will upload it !!! (: Lovelove . *muacks*

Joanne - JA

Happy mood (: !

Birthday Celebration !!! (:

2010-05-14T21:59:00.005+08:00

Woooooow ! So sorry , have to sleep early yesterday and have no time to blogg as i have tuition after my birthday celebration . So today i gonna bloggg about yesterday and today . (: Yesterday i woke up at 4am thn i look around thn fall asleep again . Thn 7.30 wake up again thn i feel that i stil very sleepy so i sleep back again . Thn 8.30 i wake up again ... Thn decided to wake up to prepare everything i need . Thn i switch on my computer , brush teeth , play for awhile , go eat breakfast , go bathe , called QY , thn bring money say goodbye and off i go ! (: Thn take bus 63 to QY's house thn from her house we cab to ECP's macdonald . Ate french fries and drank QY's coke . HAHA ! Thn rain outside . ): We sat in the mac for quite long thn QX called QY . Thn my sis and QX came to the mac meet us . After the rain had stopped we went to rent a bicle there wrote this <<1hr>> free . Thn we rent lo . QY's bike was the smallest ! AHAHAHAH ! Thn i went to deesiiao her . Thn we ride around thn we stopped somewhere have the stone thingy thn we pick seashells . Heng i have bring extra plastic bagg if not cannot put seashells liaos . Thn we took some pictures . Thn we countinue our journey but it started to rain thn we find somewhere have shelter ..... We also took some picture but some didnt post it . Maybe some days ? Thn like 4.40 we went to return our bikes . &&& We went home .

Today 7.15 woke up . Eat breakfast . Late for school ): ! Thn run 5 laps . Went back to class go through test papers . Went for recess , thn art time ! I was using my friend's hp to sms . But we didnt really do art we were watching <> actually the show quite nice . I hate the bad guys lo . Bully my SteamBoy . ): HAHA ! Thn after school faster go home bathe . Thn 3.00 left house . Meeting with Daphane , Elain , WeiGuang &&& KENNETH TAYY <> !!! AHAHA ! THn bus 135 came i was about to take the bus thn elain say still have the two DA SAO YE ! Thn wait for them lo .. We waited for bus 135 for like dam long lo . Zzz !!! Thn we reached ECP went to mac to meet . With Damien , Alex , JD , Jeremy , JunPang , CheePang and other guys . Thn Elain said that she was hungry so we decided to eat at mac first before starting the celebration . After eating with for bowling lo . I didnt really play . Can say didnt play at all . I see the guys play until like so fun . I wanted to play but i dunnoe sia ...... HAHA ! Plus the ball looks so heavy . So i just sit there watching . Around 5.15 i went to sit with Elain . Helped Damien hold his hp . Thn 5.30 went back home .. Haizzz , went for tuition ): . Maybe i will say more details . Because now like cannot think plus quite tired . Hm , i think tmr bahs . Byebye .

Joanne - JA

Very exhausted but enjoying this few days . (:

Love my parents , and thanks for the red packet ! (: iloveyouall <33>

Heading out later .

2010-05-13T08:53:00.004+08:00

Heading out later ro celebrate my birthday with Cheryl and Leon . Cheryl wanted to give me a surprise but thn the people cheryl invited wasnt able to come . They also called TJJ . Haizz , nowadays his attitude is bad . ): Totally dissapointed in him .

Joanne - JA

LOOKING FORWARD ! :D

Come back i so gonna bloggg more !!! (:

Depression .

2010-05-07T22:25:00.004+08:00

Have been hurting myself lately . ): I noe i am not welcome to Lee's family . I noe i am always the extra one . I noe i always irritating . I noe i very ugly . i noe i got attitude . i noe you all dun like me . I noe everything . I noe you all wish dun have me in the family . But how ? Mummy , gave birth to me . I'm now sad over the family ? Why isit always the one who crys and hurting myself ? Why is there none of he family members i can be close with ? Why isit like that ? They only cares about their own bfs what about me ? I'm always the odd one out and the left out one . Seriously , now my mind is full of commit suicide . Should i ? I should not right ? I have been always a cheerful girl and a happy girl . Always smiling to others . But thn ... In my heart there is always alot of questions . Now i am not close with anyone . Nobody wants to be close with me . Now i am emo-ing alone . I found someone who is emo-ing also . In tuition class also . But often see her . Asking for her num soon . Haizzz , why not i just leave the family quietly ? Will it be fine ? I dun think even if i leave they wont even miss me . Especially my sisters . They so gonna be damn happy . My second sis can have the laptop for herself liaos . Nobody will snatch . Da jie dun need waste money on my birthday . Mother dun need worried another child have exams . Father can save $$$ . So seriously i think leaving this world its the best solution isnt it ?

JoanneL - JA

*sobbing non-stop* . TT

Exams are starting tmr . ):

2010-04-29T16:15:00.005+08:00

Zzzz , tmr is friday . Have english exam . Omgawh lo . Plus am i ready for the exam ? I am not ready for maths and chinese ESPECIALLY SCI !!! . English i quite prepared . But thn now how ? maths , chinese and science fail mehs ? I scared fail sia . Now go sleep first later going bathe and go for tuition . Thn the rest of the days maybe not blogging . OHH YA ! And my attitude sucks to the core . Maybe thats all . *yawns* Luv my readers lotslots .

Joanne - JA

Wondering will we last longlong . *o.O ??!!?!?! Will we will we ?!

Maybe i'm shy or scared ? Maybe scared .

2010-04-28T19:59:00.003+08:00

Wahseh , stupid sia .. Today recess got myself wet .. JunYi lahs .. Go splash water onto me ): . Thn after recess got abit headache . But nevermind ^^ . Thn i keep touch my hair because got water . thn one of my friend say aiyoo , just abit water mahs . What if you bathe leh ? Got alot water seh . Thn i told him have towel to keep myself dry mahs . Thn he :X . HAHAHA ! (: Joanne won ! ^^ thn went to class ... jump jump to after school . after school cheryl and leon and others came to pick me up .^^ Went to the canteen . thn i scared JJ outside school wait for me thn i wanted go see but thn cheryl ask me tok to her .. LOL !!! Thn tok tok tok went to find Jen . Saw kianli thn ask her sit with me and jen . Thn went to find a book to read . Thn went out to see whether anybody looking after my bagg and books anot .. HAHA ! Thn tok to cheryl awhile went to find toilet where there is tissue .. The canteen the toilet bo toilet rolls one . ZZZ . Without toilet rolls i dun want go toilet liao . Unless very urgent . HAHA ! Omgawh , i'm telling you all all this . Haha . dirty me . (: THn went to the library again . After awhile , went to canteen to do homework . Do until 5.00 plus . Thn decided to go home . Maybe that all .
Note:
Ehh DETENTION BOI , today i msg you never reply . Zzz .. Fine lo . I think its either your phone bo $$ or you dun wnt tok to me . ORRR you busy or something until forget me .. Sadded . Byebye .

Joanne - JA

Sadded . ):

Something funny happened today !!! ^^ Today i'm totally a nuts .

2010-04-27T16:32:00.004+08:00

Funny lah today . I rmb that yesterday QY say have tuition in the end ? Dun have tuition . After school slack around in school . OHH YA ! I passed the present to Jen alr . ^^ He loved it . Hehe , he thanked me also . Thn we sit on on of the bench . Me and Jen one couple , Hazirah and aidil one couple &&& QY and Khalis one couple worh . i sat with Jen damn close haha . Hazirah and Aidil also . Only one couple didnt sit that close . Haha dun need i say you all also can guess liao .. Use bum can think liao . HAHA ! OF COURSE IS THE QY &&& KHALIS ! They were so far apart sia . Thn Jen say Hmm , we're very close alr . HAHA ! Thn Jen and I keep asking Khalis to sit closer . Thn he give damn many excuses lo . But thn in the end still listen to us . Afterthat , separated with Jen as i have to follow Cheryl . Because she scared with Khalis alone . HAHA ! Thn nvermind lo . Give Jen the last huggg and thn went off . Thn the two sweet other couple went off too . Left with Khalis , Cheryl &&& me(the gooseberry) . HAHA ! Actually wanna walk off without her knowing but thn damn hard lo . She stand so close to me . Thn aiya nevermind lo just pei her since i so wu liao .
Khalis say want go slack with his friends thn ask Cheryl go also . But thn she say dun want thn she say she want follow me home . Thn Khalis say what if i dun slack with them ? Thn i the extra one say she will give you a kiss . Thn i say no lah , just joking manszxc ! Thn i laugh laugh laugh will they two shy lai shy qu ... == But thn the way i speak i find it so funny .Thn Khalis say he want go home liao . Thn no byebye one . Thn we go also lo . WAHSEH THN SUDDENLY GOT ONE NUTS COME WANT RAPE WITH TWO SIA .. ZZZ heng never hold me hand lah if not i sure cry dehs . But thn i think he grabbed Cheryl's hand . Omgawh sia . Thn he dunnoe say what ask me lend him money . ZZZ . AFTER THAT !!! ... Something happened ................................................................................... I went to the old auntie's bubble tea shop . Thn i heard a girls voice . I tot someone video-ing so didnt care so much . I see alot of people peeking so i went to peek also . A kong Hua boy singing songs so i went away . Thn CHeryl keep sayin about khalis thn i listen lo . thn went to the uncle and auntie one thn the boy go there sing loudly sia . thn he went in to buy jelly . HE SING SING SING ... I got irritated i scolded a SHUT UP LAH ! Thn i say i choir one horh , dun playplay worh . Thn dunnoe he got hear it anot . Thn jiajia alice they all ask me sing thn i say i dun want if i battle with him he sure lose one . HAHA SO BHB !!! Thn he continue his nonsense . He say Bangala and bangala dunnoe what and bangala is burnt by sun . Lol so lame .. Thn i saw two kong hua people whether he have CCA thn they say he bo CCA .. I was like ohhh .. Thn they say he sot one . THN I OMGAWH !!!! If he sot thn i tok to him i more sot sia . Plus i keep toking to him sia ... Zzz i crazy liao . HAHA ! ^^ . Thn Cheryl say want go home thn Bus63 come liao she went up . I go bubble tea shop buy bubble tea thn Khalis came to buy bubble .. Lol lo . I think they seriously not meant to be . No offense . Thn told him everything thn he ohh ohh . == THN omgawh , i forget to top up card heng got circle line ^^ . Thn i went to the MRT to top up . Topup finish went back to see Jiajia and alice thn they going back liao .. I saw the sot boy again .. he do stupid stuffs ... He waste food also . He spit the corn in his mouth out .. Wth lo . Thn his friends laugh laugh laugh . OHH YA ! Importantly , i rmb his name .. Young Boon . Hehe !! Forgot his surname liao .. today totally not my day man ! Haha blogg till here . Do tagg at 'Our Voices' ^^ . Thankyou ; Luvszxc .

JoanneL - JA
Laughing hardcore . HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH ! (: , ^^ , :D , XD !!

To dearest Cheryl :

2010-04-26T22:17:00.003+08:00

Dear Cheryl ,
I will always stand by your side no matter what happens . I will respect your decision . Even if your choice was to give Khalis a chance , i will respect your decision . I will not ask you not to accept him but thn just wish that our relationship can stay long as usual and will not affect anyone of us . But thn sometimes i noe its hard for you to maintain it but thn just try your best ^^ . I will love you like you do to me . Just rmb that when you need me , i will always be there for you . Sometimes i really need you to be more understanding because i sometimes will feel that you dont love me alr . So sometimes i suddenly cry dun need be to shock but thn sometimes not because of that it might be other things . So must console me okays ? Haha now going to cry liao . Zzz eyes watery now . TT Haha better make sure myy tears not falling out i no webcaming with 'momoren' . So i must let him have good impression uhrs . Okays lah , thats all for today . Sorry and please be more understanding . (: Thankyou .

JoanneL - JA
*cries* for the day . ): TT

I should change my attitude . (:

2010-04-24T13:12:00.003+08:00

I think i should change myself . My attitude sometimes really can say sucks to the core manszxc . I noe by myself . And i will change it . I sometimes also hate my attitude . I want my attitude to be good , not rude to people , calm down at all time , dun anyhow hit people , not so guailan , dun have dulan face annddddd must be good to others always . Hehe , the rest is good (: Very caring , kind , take care of juniors , good to gans . Not i BHB but is the truth . ^^ . But thn i noe sometimes the way i tok can be quite irritating but thn i will try to change . ^^ . Okays lahs , maybe thats all for now . Maybe later updating more . hehe . ^^

Joannel - JA is changing . ♥

i miss him ; ♥

NAFA today .

2010-04-20T23:08:00.003+08:00

Very tired now . Today have NAFA . Have geo test . NAFA i think i get a sliver again . Thn after NAFA test saw Jen . Thn went there to tok to him . Saw Ee Ning and darryl and some other people . After awhile saw JiaHui . JunJian's ganmei . Thn went home as i have tuition . Haizz , reall cannot Tahan alr . Very very very sleepy !! ):
If tmr free i'll update more . Goodbye . Do tagg at 'Our Voices' . (:

Went to Singapore Post to eat after school . (:

2010-04-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

ZZZ !!! LAZY POST PICTURES !!! Promise tmr will post picture . (: Today went to singapore post to makan . before that i went home to take money . Left my house around 2.55 and reach the school gate around 3.00 . Aidil have NAFA so we waited for him . Thn 154 came . Went to have KFC . Thn Aidil wanna have pastamania . he went to look for it in the end still eat KFC . He bought along two other friends . One is my ganjie's admirer the other one is the deepak i think . Got three girls three boys . We coupled with one guy . obviously Aidil is with hazirah . GanJie with her admirer . And i ended up with the deepak . Haha Deepak damn funny keep making me laugh . He also tried to feed me . But thn i dun like the food so i didnt eat it . At that point of time i actually alr very full liao . No space for other food liao . Thn Deepak keep making me laugh . When aidil and hazirah and ganjie say i compatible with Deepak they say my face toally blush . But i'm not its because i laugh until to hard liao . haha anyway nver mind . I quite like Deepak anyways . He's a humourous guy . Thn we took 135 back to school . Myganjie's admirer didnt follow because he was waiting for 155 . Thn so odd one out . I couple ganjie , haizirah with aidil , Deepak so left out . Thn we alight before the ITE . But thn they say they will alight at ITE . When i alighted got one ITE guy ask for my num .. LOL ! i so shocking sia . Thn ganjie laugh to the core manszxc . Until the traffic light she still keep on laughing . We didnt see them alighting at the ITE .. Where would they be ? Haiz .. She called them i dun think hey answered the phone . So we go to the BBTea shop lo . Cheryl's bro didnt bring his key .. ZZ ! Lame sia . She have to go home ... Thn waited for her bus thn her bus came ... Before her bus got another bus . thn i saw Felicia , Germain and one stranger ... I see germain home thn went to Felicia house . I ate cake , and help her do the project . its like the drama thingy . thn i faster rush home as my sister have tuition at night . have to cook rice . went home i saw my mother . She kept on questioning me .. Haha . thn my mother ask me call my sister to wait for me to pick her up because was raining heavily . I called her . i tot someone picked up the phone but thn nobody said hello back . i shouted hello ?! still nobody reply . thn i called the second time someone picked up . i shouted HELLO ?! They person nevr reply back thn i shout WALAU WHICH STUPID PERSON SIA ?! In the end the answer was my sister didnt answer she accidentally pressed it . So along i have been toking to myself or to the ghost sia .. ZZZ!! Silly me . HAHA !
Maybe thats for all .
Update more tmr . (:
Luvszxc ! ^^v

Relationship (:

2010-04-15T22:07:00.004+08:00

Really wish that my sis would be so good to me like yesterday . She didnt get to do her DnT project and revise her geo test for today . Really felt bad but thn at the same time i feel good because i really had a feeling that my second sis really dotes me alot . Hehe . Thi year we became quite close . Because now got one stupid boy wanna snatch sisters from other people's . He also got siblings what . He still wanna have more 'FAKE' sisters . Plus now her 'FAKE' sister , qinxian's sister qinyu is not friend with that 'particular' guy . Haha . Now me and jie abit hate him .. Today i smiling at someone thn he thought i smiling at him and he smiled back . Zzz .. Who in the hell would wanna smile at him ?! Haizzz .. too busy to heck care so much about him . Now doing homework . ): Feel like sleeping . So sleepy sia . Now Bi is offline .. Haha . Give him back his 8 letter 3 word 1 meaning .
iloveyou . ^^v

No photo posted . ):

2010-04-08T22:01:00.011+08:00

Okayss ... As you can see i too busy this few days till no time take pictures ... Got too many projects le !!!! Ugrhhhh !!! Struggling with it ... ): . This few days always not enough sleep . Got this sicknessthat sickness . Last wek jackpot lo . Alot sickness come but didnt get to see a doc because waste money .. Got alot choir practice lahs ! I now abit regret i join choir sia . Should have join other CCA's ... ): Haizz . But sometime quite fun lo . Haha . Got one sec 3 guy like want jio me sia .. He got the pervertic look haha ! Haizzz ... Who cares ? HAHA ! i think i care abit bahs .. if he jio means the 12th or 13th one . HOHO~ I feel like asking them why they like me sia .. What is so good about me ? i may be very good to you sometimes but thn if i very angry sure very ... Haha dun want say le ... HAHA ! Haizzz ... too late blogg lehs .. Very tired now ..Going sleep soon . Do tagg at 'Our Voices' . Thankyou !

Sapphire rockszxc ! (:

2010-03-27T16:48:00.005+08:00

Woohoo , come back from tampines wahseh damn tired sia . Last night 11 plus sleep today 6.00 alarm thn sleep back again . 6.20 my mum wake me up again ~ Haha . BUT DAMN TIRED SIA ! Thn no choice just wake up lo . Brush teeth wake face . Tie hair and thn went for my breakfast ^^ . Meet qinxian . Wait for 65 . 65 came and i went up . The first thing i saw is WeiLun . ^^ . I went to the second floor to find sit . Hehe . Next stop , Daniel , Andy , ShenHui , Sajen went up to the bus . Haha saw them worh . I was like so emo . I asked daniel where's guowei .. But guowei go on his own .): Fine lo . Didi like dun want me . HEHE ! But muchloves to him lo .^^ ! And i sit with my sis . Hehe . Reach tampines Stadium liao go settle down . Haha we do mass and we started our events . Okays lo quite fun . Cheer until my thoart pain >< . Keep walk past Ruby there thn saw WeiLun emo-ing . ): Haizzz .. Actually wanted to run de but see so many people *faint* , fall down thn i scared sia . i scared lose also . But if next year have sports day thn i go join lo . Maybe 200m or 100m or 4x100m . Ask my friends join with me ^^ . Hehe . Just now i bo run but i scared scared sia . Dunnoe why . My sis go for the run i cheer till damn loud lo . HAHA ! Got cheer for some other people like QX <> , Jeremy , ChengWei , Ali and some other people . ^^ . Got cheer for shahirah , umairah , anonette and some other people but not kaili . ^^ . I CHEER FOR DANIEL WHEN HE GOT THE PRIZE SIA ! OMG DANIEL SO HANDSOME ! (: Hehe . What am i think of ? HAHA ! He my bro lah . Hehe . ^^ . But i still damn love him . He is the most handsome guy in my class . Audi most cute guy in my class . Umairah chio bu ! (: I dunnoe which girl cute worh ? Hehe (: . After all the events SAPPHIRE STILL WIN ! WOOHOO !~ ^^ . But Umairah even though you fell , dun give up ! Next year lets run 4x100m together ! Alrights ? Dun give up horh . We must win Anonette . We get trophy give her see . Hehe . When home after the event wit my sis . QX got a trohpy sia . 3rd . Hehe greats ! ^^ . I sec 3 compete with you horh . I train from now . HAHA ! ^^ . Maybe that all for today . ^^ . Next year must cheer for me manszxc ! i'm so gonna run ! MuchLoves . Do tagg at 'Our Voices' ! ^^ . Enjoy your day ! ^^ .

Whatever.^^

2010-03-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hehe , just now so funny lo . Tok with WeiLun . HAHA ! He damn cute lo . He make me laughs until like zharbo sia . He actually told me that he ask girls "CUP".
Me:wahseh propro ! Haha .
WeiLun:Haha^^ good right ?
Me:yeah lo
WeiLun:=D
You should ask guys for their cup size =x
Me:yeah
First one i gonna ask for yours
Whats your cup size ?
:XXX !! HAHA !
WeiLun:airport=D
Me: Lol ? Means ?
WeiLun:airport the ground must be very flat de mah =D
so flat chest lorh
The rest was confidential .
Thn ......
Me:You damn cute lo
HAHA !
WeiLun:not cute =x
Me:haha
WeiLun:=P
really mah
Me:haha
WeiLun:=P
really mah
Me:haha
but seriously cute
WeiLun:nope(:
nerd=not cute
Me:haha
wher got nerd ?
WeiLun:got got
Me:Haha no lah
The rest all confidential . ^^ Haha !
He damn cute yet he didnt want to admit it . No bad comments about this ^^ .
Do Tagg at 'Our Voices' . Thankyou . ^^

Best Friend &&& Good Friends !!! (:

2010-03-19T12:07:00.006+08:00

There will be no ranking ! It'll all be the same in my heart ! (: Jesslyn , thankyou . When ever i'm angry or sad , you always try your best to say th most pervertic things to make me laugh like mad . Haha . Even though we quarrel but you're always the one to patch us back again . Try to act like clown make who class laugh end up you kanna scolding for Ms Chan . Haha , thankyou for everything ! I'll always remember in my heart and mind ! iloveyou ! (:

Suhailah , thankyou for cheering me up when ever i'm down . Haha , you always make me angry , happy , sad and other emotions . You always make me up and down . Haha , you're my cute Ada forever (: ! iloveyou .

Umairah , same here , thankyou for cheering me up when ever i'm sad . You always make me happy . Haha . iloveyou ! (:

Amelia , same here , thankyou for cheering me up when ever i'm sad . Although we p6 always quarrel but we still have fun isnt it ? We play daidi && 21 . Haha . We gamble also . At Felicia's house also gamble . Haha .Thannkyou for everything ! iloveyou ! (:

Cherynne , thankyou for making me happy . You always be by my side whenever i need you . You always cheer me up when ever i kanna from Ms Chan . You always scold her after she scold me . HAHA ! Thankyou for your everything ! I'll bear this in mind !~ iloveyou ! (:

Yu , your turn liao worh ! Haha ! Thankyou for being my 1st best friend from MPSS even though you really hate that school that much . HAHA ! Thankyou for making me happy whenever i'm upset because of someone . You noe deh . Haha . Thankyou for asking me to think the positive way when i was about to kanna from teacher . You always by my side when i need you . But last time most of the time when your BabyIra , so i feel abit pangseh by you . But you manage to make me feel that i'm being loved by you in just a short time . Haha ! I'll bear this in mind ! iloveyou ! (:

WeiLun , your turn !!! HAHA ! Thankyou for cheering me up when i'm damn angry . Thankyou for making me laugh like mad zharbo when i video call with you . Thankyou for being my first choir senior ! If dont have you , i would be damn bored in choir . Even though sometimes your angry , you try not to throw temper at me . Thankyou for everything ! I'll bear this in mind ! iloveyou ! (:

Andy.K thankyou for cheering me up when momoren dun care about me . Thankyou for being my Abang . You're my greatest Abang ! (: Thankyou for being my counsillor when i needed one . Haha . Wish the things you have said the stupid momoren will understand and listen in . Thankyou for everything Abang ! iloveyou ! (:

If i missedout some of you do tell me . Is either i dun have your pic or i forgotten . I apologise first ! (: But still love you all !

Boring ~ ):

2010-03-14T13:29:00.004+08:00

Daniel,Andy.K&&&Vincent.C . Andy &&&&&&& Joanne(me) (: .
Feel bored at home so i decided to bloggg . (: . Yesterday supposed to go out with DarlinqYu and her bro deh . But she last minute say she cannot alr . She went out with her godmother . Sooo .... i just stay at home lo . Tok with friends , watch taiwan shows &&&& listen music . Haha ... Thn today still stay at home toking with friends . Like so boring ... Next week i dun want go Choir Camp liao . Zzz . I think i will be damn boring . i go on thursday only . Maybe only ... Hehe . (: . Thn coming friday go out with DarlinqYu , her bro and my Senior WeiLun . (: Thn thursday after choir camp going WildWildWet lo . But also see first ... Haiz stupid camp make me cannot relax in my March Holiday . ZZZ ! Stupid lah . Okays maybe thats all . WeiLun CheerUp !!! (: Still have me lah . So dun think that way !!! (:

JoanneLovesJunYi !!!

2010-03-10T22:14:00.003+08:00

I feel like "so long" bo update my blogg ... So decided to updated lo . Haha .. Samesame .. Study study study !~ Today had English haha but too bad my teacher was on leave for like a week till march holidays . Thn after English have Science . After Science i have LIT !!! (: haha Same teacher so relieve teacher come in we all listen mp3 , psp , hp and play with some other things (: After LIT have Maths with Mr Lukman (: !! Haha after that recess . After recess having History . But too bad my history teacher LEAVE ALSO !!! (: . Thn after that have Science again . zzz science so boring .. I had a nap in Science lesson . HAHA ! :XXX ! Thn after that Music . We sang Dona dona and played the recorder . Haha so fun . (: Then after that Maths again . Play with Karan , Audi &&& my beloved kor ~~ HAHA ! (: Thn cant finish my maths work thn have to stay back but managed to do finish quickly . Haha within 5 mins do finish (: . So didnt stay too long in the class . ZZZZZ !! TMR SEEING MY CHINESE TEACHER . ): Haiz he really suckz to th core . i dun like him lo . But sometimes he quite good only . But the sometimes dun last long . ): But at least better thn nothing . HAHAH . Today kanna pangseh by people . Say want meet up but we lost sight of each other . Haha . Haizz . Hate people who pangseh me sia . Make me feel so miserable . I'm kindaof like invisible to them ? Haizz .. Make me like no mood liao .. Maybe thats all for today . :D ! WeiLun dun be upset ! (: Oneday your princess will pop out in yourlife deh . (: CHEER UP ! :D ! ♥

JoanneLovesJunYi !!! ♥♥♥

Caught a bad flu and cough ... ): Boring at home ~~~

2010-03-07T14:59:00.003+08:00

Haha ... This sunday like no interesting things to update lehhh ... Listening song and watching Easy Fortune Happy Life again ~ Lol . Okays lo its quite nice .. If i dun watch that i gonna watch Fated to Love You again ~~ It will be my 7th time watching it . Haha ... Anyone intro taiwan shows to me ? I WANT TO WATCH TAIWAN SHOWS !!! Taiwan shows is always better thn other country's shows . Haha no offence lah . xPPP . Omg iloveJimmyLim . He so cute and handsome . Haha . If he ever comes to singapore i gonna get a photo with him and his signature . (: HAHA . Okays... Maybe thats all .. (:

iloveyou , JimmyLim . ♥♥♥

Friendship is always better than relationship . (: LOVES N1D !

2010-03-06T11:15:00.007+08:00

Our girls group . HAHA ! (:

The boys in another capsule . (:

My sis . Suhaila . (:

KianLi and Me !!! (:

After the IBMC week . We're now more closer and we become one big family . That did not include , Kaili . xP ! Thats all for today . (:

LOVES ! N1D ! WOOHOO !~

Wentout with darlinq ! (:

2010-02-28T11:14:00.003+08:00

Yesterday wentout with darlinq and her bro . Haha i enjoyed it . We went to buy movie ticket and went to bugis junction for out pastamania ! (: So need i eat meatballs spagetti . Darlinq eat creamy spagetti and her bro eat pizza . Haha . After that we shop around till 3.50 slowly walked to iluma and buy popcorn , drinks and her bro's nacho . After that we went up . We watched Valentine's day sia . So many couple and we're the only ones who doesnt have couple . ): Thn so many people looking sia . So embarrassed ! But the show was quite good seh . Haha was funny too . Thn after the show was like 6.00 pm thn we slowly walked out to the mall . Then , we went to bugis street to buy ear rings . Thn sis called darlinq say want meet us . Haha . With my brother-in-law . xP . Then after that my sis called again and say they reached then we meet up . Go vitualand see here see there . Haha . Then we go bugis junction's MUJI . My sis bought drink and tidbis while i didnt buy anything . ): Haha . Darlinq also dun want buy . Then we walked around the place thn darlinq say gg home soon . Haiz thn our last stop is at cold storage thn byebye . We two bought sushi's . Haha so nice (: . Thn continue my journey with future-brother-in-law and sis lo . They pangseh me . ): Haha . Then as i say walk around the place again . Thn go back bugis street buy earrings . When we're about to wait for the bus at the bustop . future-bro-in-law said want buy bagg sia . WTHHH !!!! @@ . Thn go buy bagg lo . After that he send my sis home . HOMESWEETHOME ! (: Haha ! That's all ! ; (:

Loves ! ♥♥♥

Dear ShenHui , BE MORE AUTO LAHS !!!! (:

2010-02-20T13:02:00.004+08:00

Zzz ..... Wait and wait and wait .... Wait till when ? Give you chance and chances alr . I decided to try out with you first but you ? Still need friend help you ask or say . I alr very auto liao lo .... Ask you , you either dun reply or idle ..... Zzz what's wrong with you ? Aiya , if you continue like this lets give up . Since you not sincere enough . But to be really i dun see you sincere . If you like other girl other girl also will be like me .. I mean some* Hahas . Damn angry with you lah . I from Monday want emo liao . I really heckcare liao lo ! If you dont comfort me let it be . I also dun think you will comfort me lo . Only know Andy Andy ANDY ! Me leh ? I rank last in your heart lo think i dunnoe everytime friends is always the first in your heart .. Zzz i dont want continue write liao ... ZZ !

Omg !!! Feel so bad ... First time never go choir practise sia !!!! ):

2010-02-17T16:52:00.007+08:00

Feel so bad sia ): Didnt go to choir practise today because want go out with my jiejie (JoreanL) thn IN THE END LEH ? SHE GO WITH JDJDDJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJD !!!!! Dun want meimei le TT .... Then my primary school friend Felicia France Lim came my house to find me . Haha ... (: thn she say alot of people in the school miss me ... Because didnt go SAC with them . Hehe xP . Thn she say miss me when i primary school in class like big sister in class mahs thn she say got alot people bully her . HAHA ! I tot everybody only care their stead or new friends dun care exclassmates or friends le ... SO GAN DONG MANZXC ! (: Hehe .. Thn we say until like going 4pm thn she went home . But before she went home she want a hugggy from me . So i granted her wish (: ! HUGGSSS* &&& she went back home . (: Haha so sweet right ? Haha she make me so sad sia like so long bo see *oldfriends* liaoz . But seriously lo i miss them . I miss their immature thinking , i miss their misbehaviouring , i miss their voice especially shuqi's ! HAHA ! she prevertic but most importantly FUNNY LO ! Keep making laughs like one siao zharbo >< !!! Haha , wish to rewind the time if i could . (: Hmph maybe thats all for today bahs . Loves ! ♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ! Loves (: !!!

2010-02-15T17:45:00.004+08:00

Haha , relatives today visit my family and I so happy got more angpow to take !!!!~ But still have some relatives never come leh . Dunnoe whether they coming or not . But please let them fly here lah my hand so itchy so need more angpow . They just left not long . Just now playing with my youngest cousin . She so hyper active lo ! Anyhow throw things at people . ): Then i also kanna by her . My other 3 cousins , SO HANDSOME . Tall and handsome seh . Haha . I like didnt even go tok to them ? ZZZZ ! I wanted to too scared liao so didnt . I so regret loh ! Haizz ... But at the end my elder sis tok to the elder cousin thenn i get to tok abit ? But at least abit . Haha . At first my father say they not coming .... I so sad sia . Not because bo angpow lah is because cannot see shuaige's Lol ! Haha . Wish the June holiday they coming sg to play play . Hoho then can play with the youngest cousin . >< !! My mum still ask me whether i still small uh because play with the youngest cousin mahs plus she this year only 5 years old ? Haha .... Hmph , thats all for today (: ! Loves !♥

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! (:

2010-02-14T00:36:00.003+08:00

Haha , Happy Chinese New Year . In the brand new year wish all my friends all the best . Study hard and get a stead soon ! xP HAHA LOL ! x) Haha . Miss my friends alot now . Meet up soon . Anyway we finding time . P6 Grace if wanna meet up tell me . Haha . Now my brain so blank . Hmph , thats all for today . xP . Loves .

Wth Cheat My Feeling For What ?

2010-02-06T14:31:00.003+08:00

Why cheat my feelings !!! I really dam down now you know ? Even if you dun like me sad lah . But you that time on the phone did say that you like me didnt you ? You also wanted me to believe you . When i dont believe you , you want me to believe when i believe you , you make me begin not to believe your words . You make me stop believing what the guys tells me . I really hate you now . I want you to get out of my sight forever . Please , let us just be a stranger will you ? I want new life . You always make me thinks that girls have no position to say but i'm so wrong . Now will wil have a positive thinking . We all are humans so we all have the position to say what we think . So beg you leave my sight will you ?
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Wahseh ~ I quite long b update worhx . I hurt my hand TT ...

2009-12-15T11:50:00.003+08:00

This sunday went to wild wild wet and hurt my hand . Walau damn pain luhrs . But funn . Went with my sis . Actually was going with felicia thn cnt find her so we play our own lo . Wahseh i so relax t the wild wild wet sia . Keep playing water . Thn wanted to play with my sis the bicycle thingy thn at first not scared one . Thn after that damn scared lo i dun dare sit liaoz lo . Kao ~ Thn got one lifeguard ask my sis i have been dump isit thn my sis say no . OFCAUSE NOT LUHRS ! I still single okays . No luh actually my face like quite sad but i'm no sad . Hahah . But overall quite fun ... :) If next time go i wouldnt want to hurt my hand again >< !

It has been a long time in CCPS . It hurts when i am leaving the school .

2009-11-21T14:57:00.003+08:00

Yesterday , i cried the long in my life . I gonna miss all my friends and best friends and good friends !:) Miss Chan you too :) haha . Friends forever and you student forever :) ! Yesterdays , i really cannot bear alr so cried out and i was really very sad and i kept thinking what if i live and what if school ends ? What will i do . And when i hug a person i cry more when i hug Miss Chan and Cherynne i cried the most because they are very meaningful to me . When i went to AA for assembly they all say go hugg miss chan so we all did . HAHA miss chan say the people they cry that include me so emotional . HHAA . But really cannot bear alr . Plus i not going SAC alr . TT But dear friends we still can meet up to shopping or go makan also . So i think i gonna cry more when i get my PSLE result . Haiz , i dun write le later write more thn i will be starting to cry . &&&& Wish you all , all the best ! Be healthy ! And gonna pray for my mother to be okaysss . Thats all Byes . :)

HUANG JING LUN !!!!

2009-11-08T21:50:00.008+08:00

OMG , his so handsome ! Much loves to him :) ! His cute , short , handsome &&&&& his songs also very good .

Much Loves to HUANG JIG LUN !!!!!

It has been longgg ....

2009-11-07T00:13:00.004+08:00

WOOATS ! Back blogging again :) . My blogg is totally dead so ladies and gentlemen do taggg at my blogg ! :) Hmmm , dun really know what to tok but the day to take our PSLE results are drawing near :) So happy !!! Omg , just kindaof scared to get my results and the result wasnt what i want . So now need friends to pray for my and family . Anyway Ladies do enjoy your holidays :) !

Have badd temper because of psle/stress ?

2009-10-03T20:57:00.004+08:00

Today went to tuition didnt see that *naughty* guy ... Haizzz last day of tuition also dun want to come . Sad luhrrrssss maybe not seeing him anymore . When i was about to go home today say cris , jh , and ff . I full of hatred when i saw cris . He bloody-sucker-hell . Damn hate him i sometimes even dun undertstand why i so hate him . Sometimes even want to be nice to him but he like can appreciate my good . Only noe about SHU QI SHU QI SHU QI . Anyway it doesnt mean that i like him . i hate bloody-sucker-hell . He really sucks my toe . I just want to forget last time how he treated me . He really damn bad to me . So now become boyish not like boyish , girlish not like girlish . Like people says tomboyish . This is for dear shu qi : Heys girl heres something i want to tell you . I noe how you feel and why you like him damn much . dun put in too much love for him rights ? Dun hurt yourself . Anything i will try my best to protect you . ^^ . I try ? Thats all for you . Okays , i'll try to control dun let shu qi heartbreak because me(her good friend) . And cris make sure you be good to shu qi . you make her cry once i box you once ! DUN THINK I DUN DARE YOU 混蛋！最好给我按份一点！

Need a good laugh ? Here's some to make you have a great laughs ! ^^

2009-09-26T22:46:00.005+08:00

6 more school days sia . Its getting so scary manxcc . Hmmmmsss .... Just feel like putting this pic because all of my picture was like i , alone , in the pic so i want kindaof crowded picture so i chose this ... ^^ But this is quite long .... Like few weeks ago ... haha but is still vry nice ^^ . Love it . Okays , hope you enjoys reading my bloggg because i know i might be kindaof lame because this jokes really do makes me laughs sometimes ... Haha , okays , enjoyssss !

Papa Turtle is telling his son a bed-time story . "Once upon a time , there was a white bunny . "
"Awwww , c'mon , Dad , " says the boy .
"that's kid stuffy . what about some science fiction ?"
" Alrights . Once upon a time , there was a bunny in outer space . . . "
'' Dad ! Make it more grown-up . "
" OK , OK . Promise you wont tell mum . "
" I swear ."
" Once upon a time , there was a naked bunny . . . "

Doctor : Have you taken my advice and slept with the window open ?
Patient : Yes .
Doctor : So your asthma disappeared completely ?
Patient : No , but my watch , TV , iPod and laptop have .

My cousin always "borrows" money from her older brother's piggy bank , which drives him crazy . One day , she found the piggy in , of all places the refrigerator . Inside was this note : Dear sister , i hope you''ll understand , but my capitel has been frozen .

I haven blog since 12 September 2009 .

2009-09-17T18:52:00.004+08:00

Woooowww , is like so long haven been bloggginggg siaa . Haha misses you(readers) manxc . HeeHee =) Did you all miss me too ? Haha 11 more days for PSLE i'm so scared i will lose to this war (world war three) . MUST PULL DOWN JAPAN !!! == Haha ~ Kidding . I wouldn't pull down japan unless they tried to pull down singapore . Anyway i am willing to protect singapore if singapore need any help :)) . Haixccc tomorrow have MT and EL LC manxcc PSLE PSLE PSLE one lehhss ! Waseh wish the PSLE examiners are kind and NOT THAT KIND OF UNREASONABLE PEOPLE . I doesn't like unreasonable teacher . Haha okays maybe thats all for today ? Maybe upload more tomorrow about how i feel after my two LC PSLE . Alrights .

Bye Bye ! Lots lots loveeee .

Quite long bo blog liao luhs ...

2009-09-12T17:07:00.004+08:00

Today woke up at 8.30 a.m. because got tuition ....
Brush teeth 5 minutes thn went off to eat my breakfast :) .
15 minutes to eat breakfast because i slowly chew my food .
Change clothes for 10 minutes ;; lie at my pillow and the smoothe bedddyy . Keke =P
Went out like going to 9.00 i should be there like 9.00 because dunnoe really care . Brought my homeworks there to do too ! I did maths in maths class the teacher also didnt say anything because the maths was supposed to be for standard but my mom insisted me on going that tuition so no choice but GO . :( But also quite good play with a naughty boy beside me . But we keep toking to then laugh laugh laugh tok laugh laugh laugh like kindaof keeysiiao ! But most of all FUN :) . Sitting with him was quite good because can always tok to him and play with him . He always can make my laughhhss =) soooo not that bad sitting with him . Today saw him bringing a basketball i was like looking at it and hit hit hit =P . Then i began toking to the basketball i said ; Ke lian de basketball uhss you got a very very bad owner worrhhhss always bully you right ? If i am your owner i will be very good to you deehhhssss . If i got anything wantt to share i'll tok to you first deehhhss . Then he looked at me and then i looked back . HE SAY I SIIAO LIAOOO ! WTH ?! CALL ME SIIAO HE TIRED PF LIVING SIA . But that time not that angry because wass play play one . Hehe ;) . Then continued doing my maths when teacher suddenly come and take my maths paper and see . After putting at my take i started playing with him again haha .
Then 10.30 is our 15 minutes break . The BIG BULLY SHARON keep on hitting me . Stupid luhhss she not pain i plain leehhss PLUS irratating with herr . Hit my back poke me . Okays , lets not tok about her LATER I ANGRY UNTIL BURST AGAIN ! xD
Then 10.45 have my english tuition . We did quite little things but next week got to do quite alot .
After my english tuition went home immediately . Listening music while going home . :) .
So i quite enjoy today ^^c very funn and enjoyy able dayyy !
Hope you all readers are having an enjoyable dayy !
Today i'll be ending here :)))) ^^c !
Bye Bye !

好久没有写在部落各了！

2009-09-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

哇，我好久没有写在部落各了！哈哈。。。过了一阵子了，我应该开始努力了！因为，我是铁金鋼吗！。。。我也看到了我得分数了，我不是很满意耶。。。有其是科学和英文。老师说我英文还可以进步，哈哈！~ 我数学还不赖老师说我有进步耶！好开心哟！我华文还好啦有进步一点。。。我会加油得，唯你们也要加油哟!

Wahhh , i have not been updating for my blogg for sometime ! Haha ... After this few days , i think i should starting study hard ! Because , i'm the gorilla mahhs ! HAHA ! .... I had seen my exam marks alrs , i'm not really happy with it .... Especially , my science and english . My form teahcer said that my english can be improved and also hit my target . Hehe . My maths was quite good ... My teacher say improved ! Damn happy ! ;D My chinese okays luhs quite good only improved abit but aleadt didnt backslide ;D . I will continue to buck up , you all also must buck up with me uhhss ! ;DDDDD ..
Luvs you all lots lots lots !♥

I'll tryy to leavee youu , vv^ !

2009-08-27T21:47:00.003+08:00

Today , had my chinese quite hard ... TT Is damn hard that i starting to worry will i fail anotttt .... Omqqqqqqqqqqqooooossssshhhhhh ! Anyway i tried my best alr . Tmr , will be having my science exam uhhhsss ! Hear science like going *faint* liaooozzz . Teeeeeheeeee =E ... I think i gonnaa fail ? Zzzz .. Scared scared dehhhsss ~~ Today do chinese like no energy because very sleepy do listening compre the teachers collected the paper my head like magnets attracted to the table dehhss thn i closed my eyee and sleep to the table ... That 5mins sleep was great .. But a little more time would be better @.@ ////// Hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . But aleast got 5 mins is better thn nothing :) Was happy too ;) ! 0kays , thats all because now cannot think of anything because begin to scared liaoo ! Everybody Jiayous ! ;) Good Luck all ! Miss youuuuuuu , darlinqs !~

Haissss , you're hurting me again you found another one .... You have two now ... Enjoyable uhhhss ? Really don't know whyy you're like that ! vv^

2009-08-26T14:12:00.009+08:00

Woooats ! Now , can upload photos liaoooxccc ! =) Today had my maths exam errrmmm ... Quite hard some easy is damn easy some hard is damn hard TT ... Wooow i break record ! i took 5 minutes to do a ques got 3 ques also 5 minutes ... Last time never took so long to solve the problem sums ... Is kindaof hardd uhhss ? Maybe my brain abit sot sot ... Going times up thn everything i remember sia !!! HAHA ! But i never do one ques ... Because my brain *BURSTED* liaoooxccc ! Think until *BURSTED* Dehhhhhssssss ! xD WAJ ! HAHA ! Okays , back to Monday's topic !!! vv^

Whhyyy are you hurting me ? You found another girl , right ? I saw it !! I saw everything !!!... Can you understand how i feel ?

你能明白吗？！

我为了你做了那么多，你到底把我当成什么人来看待呢？

我。。。对你好失望啊！

虽然，我很想离开你身边但是因为我们的回意就让我无法力开你~

一想起我们的回意我就会想起你。。。

我还会算我们到底还有多少时间再一起。。。

I'll try to leave your worlddd and out of your sight .......

That's all ...

Again and again* .....

Exams Here To Visit Me !

2009-08-25T21:55:00.005+08:00

Exams here ..... Haizzz ... Is kindaof like hard for English ... Today i have my English exam paper 2 i did my listening compre too ! Its kindaof like not tired because in the morning met someone who gave me the energy LOLS ! ... No luhhhsss .... Just too long never see him then like can see him happy luhhss .... I also so long never met the person's didi so long he also never tok to me on msn then nevermind luhhss ... Because that time had a fight with him thats why he damn angry with me . Aiya , anyway is always my fault .... i create all this bigg mess and have to let people to clean it up for me ..... Aiya , now realise also not use mahhss the person also dun have tok to me or whatever . So better dun meet with each other better like so awkward ... So everyone like Gan Jie , XiaoJie , WeiShen , JOREAN , Elain , XiaoRui , RuiYuan , Sharon , Cherynne , Jamie , Jasmine , Carol , Jody , Karishma , Michelle D.j , Nittaya Last but not least JinYi all must Jiayous ! 我会为你们做奇导得！
All the Loved ones ontop JIAYOUS ! Haha thats all =) ! Dun waste all my efforts worh ! Love you all lots lots lots !

My attitude changed to you & the ones i loved & cared . Absolutely __ changed maybe is because of you .

2009-08-24T16:38:00.007+08:00

Haizzz .. Just kindaof curious what makes me changed so fast and it just gone .... i can't find it back ... No mattar how hard i tried no use . Or maybe is my stress that makes me the way i am NOT supposed to be , uh ? I supposed to be CARING , NOT VERY GOOD ATTITUDE (but not that bad) & KIND HEARTED . You are making back to my childishness , attitude bad , bad to classmates & always do the things that people doesn't like , aren't you ? Really i can't understand . Whyy are you heart;less to me ? Whyy i dun get it . We're getting good , aren't we ? Or i am damn bad that you you have to hurt my heart once and again . I just did show my jealousness . What if i show ? What will you do and what will i do ? Nobody knowssss ... You & me doesnt know also ; .... ? My ship with you will continue to stay afloat or sink into the sea ? Whenever i say bad thing or say some nasty things just to make one smile on your face . Do you understand how much i tried ? Now i noe all my efforts have wasted . Isit ? Aiya , you want to go with her just go you dun have to care how i felt or whatever . Just choose to hurt one and make the other happy . So i dunhave to be so tired , dunneed use too much efforts to make you happy . I make pillow for you , give keychain to you , write letter to you & comfort you whenever your're sad or something like that . If you want me to choose i rather go back to the days we haven been together ? That time i still remember you said we will never be together but we still be together . I have noe you for 1 year 8 months 24 days 17 hours 12 minutes and dunnoe how many secs ..... I think i this kind of people dunneed bestfriends ? I just need someone to tok to and someonre to care for me . I'm such a failure uhhhh ! Hate myself ! Joanne , i getting to hate you more and more .
To someone i care for most .

PSLE Oral ~

2009-08-20T20:06:00.004+08:00

Haha , today is chinese PSLE Oral for me ...... I take 2nd half .... From 9.30 to 1.00 but 2nd have one just go home after i had finish my exam .. Hehe =) But too bad tmr is from 7.00 to 10.30 sia .. Somemore i 3th to take the test leh must wait dunnoe which sai to finish =X HAHA ! Tomorrow , is for English haha i 5th =D Scared scared one ... Walau plus the person who test me is a guy ~~~~~~ == !!! He keep looking at me thn the oother one look on the paper ... thn my mind was like OMG FORGOT TO SMILE NO SMILE ?! thn when is the picture time thn i smile ... Hahah . Thn the six points have to say one forgot sia ... Scared until forgot what my chinese teacher said to me .. TT Wish WISH WISH !!! DUN GET LOW THN 40 ! Haha i now must worried for my english liaooozzzz .... Omg i suckz in english ... Say until so little deh .... But chinese still okays not that bad . Haha after chinese when to cheers to makan . SO many friends at there loitering . Hehe , thn chit-chat say about other people ..... So happy . Thn share this share that . So fun =) After at cheers for more thn 30 mins Seiyu rushed me to get home because she want go out mah ... Thn she askme want go anot thn i say okays luh . Haha , we went to bugis to see see look look ... Thn first station we went to MUJI =) I bought 2 bottle of the mango jelly thingy .. Haha very nice but taste like orange leh @@ ! I bough sweet also . =) My favourite sweetie-candy LOVE IT ! ;)))) So long bo go to bugis liaozz now do strange to bugis . I found out there's new shopping malls nearby . Not bad it was very nice . I took a long when something caught my eyeeeeee ~ A small keychain pet plant so cute =) I chose for the goodluck one . Because i want pass my oral mah so buy luh . Damn ex so small for 4.90 sia TT .... Money gone . Thn we went up .... Seiyu see oneshop stay there for 30 min sia my leg so painnnnn ~~~~ She keep finding Hitsugaya things ~thn dun care luh ^-^c Haha thn went to dunnoe what collection .....Thn see see see nothing to see she still keep on HITSUGAYA ! !!! very angry with her ! thn after that shewent down she saw a poster BLEACH == SHE BOUGHT IT DAMN EXPENSIVE $10 SIA ONE PIECE OF PAPER $10 !!! I THN DUN WANT UH ! Thn she follow me buy the flower also luh .... After that we decided to go home we bough OLD CHANG KEE ... =))) That's how i engjoy my ; day =))))))))))))))) SO HAPPY ! HAHA NOW WORRYING FOR TOMORROW's EXAM LIAOZ ><>
That's the end thanks for reading =))

Jokes Times !

2009-08-15T20:54:00.004+08:00

STUPID LUH MY THIRD TIME UPDATING THE 2TIMES DUNNOE WHAT HAPPEN KEEPS ON DELETE MY BLOG THINGY WALAU WEI IRRTATING !

Drawling granny voice: Way back inna winner of fifty-two, we didn' have fanshy gadjets like no ansherin' machine. You jusht had to call and call until shummbody got home. Now, shum people, dey shay dey don' like 'em, but I shay it'll shave you a lotta trouble if you jusht leave a meshage. Thanksh a lot.

I Could Use a Little Money.....
Dear Father,$chool i$ really great. I am making lot$ of friend$ and $tudying very hard. With all my $tuff, I $imply ¢an't think of anything I need, $o if you would like, you can ju$t $end me a card, a$ I would love to hear from you.
Love,Your $on.
After receiving his son's letter, the father immediately replies by sending a letter back.Dear Son, I kNOw that astroNOmy, ecoNOmics, and oceaNOgraphy are eNOugh to keep even an hoNOr student busy. Do NOt forget that the pursuit of kNOwledge is a NOble task, and you can never study eNOugh.
Love,Dad

It had been snowing for hours when an announcement came over the intercom: "Will the students who are parked on University Drive please move their cars so that we may being plowing." Twenty minutes later there was another announcement: "Will the nine hundred students who went to move fourteen cars return to class."

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying to make the matter clearer, he said: "Now, students, if I stood on my head the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I should turn red in the face." "Yes, sir," the boys said. "Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?" A little fellow shouted, "'It's because yer feet ain't empty."

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture. "Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer; she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, he's a doctor.'"A small voice from the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher; she's still old, nasty, and wrinkled"

A college business professor could not help but notice that one of his students was late to class for the third time that week. Before class ended he went around the room asking students some questions about the day's lecture. Of course, he made sure to pick on his tardy pupil. "And who was it that developed the theories behind communism?" the professor asked."I don't know," the student said."Perhaps if you came to class on time, Mr. Reebs, you would know," said the professor."That's not true," the student replied. "I never pay attention anyway!"

A college pizza delivery boy arrived at the house of Larry Johnson. He delivered the pizza to his trailer. After giving it to him, Larry asked: "What is the usual tip?""Well," replied the youth, "this is my first trip here, but the other guys say if I get a quarter out of you, I'll be doing great." "Is that so?" snorted Larry. "Well, just to show them how wrong they are, here's five dollars.""Thanks," replied the youth, "I'll put this in my school fund.""What are you studying in school?" asked Larry.The lad smiled and said: "Applied psychology."

Freshman: Is never in bed past noon.
Senior: Is never out of bed before noon.
Freshman: Reads the syllabus to find out what classes he can cut.
Senior: Reads the syllabus to find out what classes he needs to attend.
Freshman: Brings a can of soda into a lecture hall.
Senior: Brings a jumbo hoagie and six-pack of Mountain Dew into a recitation class.
Freshman: Calls the professor "Teacher.
"Senior: Calls the professor "Bob.
"Freshman: Would walk ten miles to get to class.
Senior: Drives to class if it's more than three blocks away.
Freshman: Memorizes the course material to get a good grade.
Senior: Memorizes the professor's habits to get a good grade.
Freshman: Knows a book-full of useless trivia about the university.
Senior: Knows where the next class is. Usually.
Freshman: Shows up at a morning exam clean, perky, and fed.
Senior: Shows up at a morning exam in sweats with a cap on and a box of pop tarts in hand.
Freshman: Has to ask where the computer labs are.
Senior: Has own personal workstation.
Freshman: Lines up for an hour to buy his textbooks in the first week.
Senior: Starts to think about buying textbooks in October... maybe.
Freshman: Looks forward to first classes of the year.
Senior: Looks forward to first beer garden of the year.
Freshman: Is proud of his A+ on Calculus I midterm
Senior: Is proud of not quite failing his Complex Analysis midterm
Freshman: Calls his girlfriend back home every other night
Senior: Calls Domino's every other night
Freshman: Is appalled at the class size and callousness of professors
Senior: Is appalled that the campus 'Subway' burned down over the summer
Freshman: Conscientiously completes all homework, including optional questions
Senior: Homework? I knew I forgot to do something last night
Freshman: Goes on grocery-shopping trip with Mom before moving onto campus
Senior: Has a beer with Mom before moving into group house
Freshman: Is excited about the world of possibilities that awaits him, the unlimited vista of educational opportunities, the chance to expand one's horizons and really make a contribution to society
Senior: Is excited about new dryers in laundry room
Freshman: Takes meticulous four-color notes in class
Senior: Occasionally stays awake for all of class

hen your friend tells you all about his Cressida V6 and you reply "Yeah, I had V5, and it was full of bugs!"When driving you see a license plate with the letters DSR, and you feel compelled to touch your bumper to the other car to see if you can raise CD.When you are counting objects "0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,A,B,C,D...".When you lay down in the afternoon for a short rest, end up sleeping 4 hours, and call it a "mega-nap".When your friend is going to Essex for vacation and you tell her, "You really should go for the DX, it has the built in co-processor."When you dream in 256 pallettes of 256 colors.When asked about a bus schedule, you wonder if it is 16 or 32 bits.When you convince yourself that Tetris really does improve eye-hand coordination.When the radio traffic reporter talks about a backup caused by a crash, and you correct her that a backup is good protection in case of a crash.When floppy drive applies more to your love life, and hard drive to your machines.When you call "*.*" star-dot-star.When you can do hexadecimal arithmatic in your head.When your wife goes to the market for some macintosh apples, and you correct her, "No, dear, it's 'Apple Macintosh'."When your wife says "If you don't turn off that stupid machine and come to bed, then I am going to divorce you!", and you chastise her for for omitting the else clause.

Thats all for today =) Want more ? Write in taggg board
If dun one also nevermind is okay deh =) HAHA ! I noe is kindaof cold .... Lol .
Okays THATS ALL !
Bye Bye Miss You ALLL !!!!!

Kingone ! ♥

2009-08-10T20:30:00.005+08:00

Woats .. Just Update Photos Luhhh ..... =)))
Haha , Dunnoe Why Now Dun Really Like Hyun Joong Now I Like Kingone =))

Haha So Handsome ... =)) :DD

Jorean & Joanne ♥♥♥ ;DDD
Wish You Like It =) TeeHee !

:))))))

Buddhist Meditation is Relaxing with the Truth .

2009-08-08T16:27:00.004+08:00

Wooowwww , ...... Just went to yahoo found this Buddhist meditation .... I just wanted to find how i can destress but i just found this ....
It is only when we begin to relax with ourselves as we are that meditation becomes a transformative process. The pith instruction is, Stay. . . stay. . . just stay.
As a species, we should never underestimate our low tolerance for discomfort. To be encouraged to stay with our vulnerability is news that we definitely can use. Sitting meditation is our support for learning how to do this. Sitting meditation, also known as mindfulness-awareness practice, is the foundation of bodhichitta training. It is the home ground of the warrior bodhisattva.Sitting meditation cultivates loving-kindness and compassion, the relative qualities of bodhichitta, which could be defined as completely awakened heart and mind. It gives us a way to move closer to our thoughts and emotions and to get in touch with our bodies. It is a method of cultivating unconditional friendliness toward ourselves and for parting the curtain of indifference that distances us from the suffering of others. It is our vehicle for learning to be a truly loving person.Gradually, through meditation, we begin to notice that there are gaps in our internal dialogue. In the midst of continually talking to ourselves, we experience a pause, as if awakening from a dream. We recognize our capacity to relax with the clarity, the space, the open-ended awareness that already exists in our minds. We experience moments of being right here that feel simple, direct, and uncluttered.This coming back to the immediacy of our experience is training in unconditional bodhichitta. By simply staying here, we relax more and more into the open dimension of our being. It feels like stepping out of a fantasy and relaxing with the truth.Yet there is no guarantee that sitting meditation will be of benefit. We can practice for years without it penetrating our hearts and minds. We can use meditation to reinforce our false beliefs: it will protect us from discomfort; it will fix us; it will fulfill our hopes and remove our fears. This happens because we don't properly understand why we are practicing.Why do we meditate? This is a question we'd be wise to ask. Why would we even bother to spend time alone with ourselves?First of all, it is helpful to understand that meditation is not just about feeling good. To think that this is why we meditate is to set ourselves up for failure. We'll assume we are doing it wrong almost every time we sit down: even the most settled meditator experiences psychological and physical pain. Meditation takes us just as we are, with our confusion and our sanity. This complete acceptance of ourselves as we are is called maitri, a simple, direct relationship with our being.Trying to fix ourselves is not helpful. It implies struggle and self-denigration. Denigrating ourselves is probably the major way that we cover over bodhichitta.Does not trying to change mean we have to remain angry and addicted until the day we die? This is a reasonable question. Trying to change ourselves doesn't work in the long run because we're resisting our own energy. Self-improvement can have temporary results, but lasting transformation occurs only when we honor ourselves as the source of wisdom and compassion. We are, as the eighth-century Buddhist master Shantideva pointed out, very much like a blind person who finds a jewel buried in a heap of garbage. It is right here in our smelliest of stuff that we discover the awakened heart of basic clarity and goodness, the completely open mind of bodhichitta.It is only when we begin to relax with ourselves as we are that meditation becomes a transformative process. When we relate with ourselves without moralizing, without harshness, without deception, we finally let go of harmful patterns. Without maitri, renunciation of old habits becomes abusive. This is an important point.There are four main qualities that are cultivated when we meditate: steadfastness, clear seeing, experiencing one's emotional distress, and attention to the present moment. These four factors apply not only to sitting meditation, but are essential to all the bodhichitta practices and for relating with difficult situations in our daily lives.SteadfastnessWhen we practice meditation we are strengthening our ability to be steadfast with ourselves. No matter what comes up梐ching bones, boredom, falling asleep, or the wildest thoughts and emotions梬e develop a loyalty to our experience. Although plenty of meditators consider it, we don't run screaming out of the room. Instead we acknowledge that impulse as thinking, without labeling it right or wrong. This no small task. Never underestimate our inclination to bolt when we hurt.We're encouraged to meditate everyday, even for a short time, in order to cultivate this steadfastness with ourselves. We sit under all kinds of circumstances梬hether we are feeling healthy or sick, whether we're in a good mood or depressed, whether we feel our meditation is going well or is completely falling apart. As we continue to sit we see that meditation isn't about getting it right or attaining some ideal state. It's about being able to stay present with ourselves. It becomes increasingly clear that we won't be free of self-destructive patterns unless we develop a compassionate understanding of what they are.One aspect of steadfastness is simply being in your body. Because meditation emphasizes working with your mind, it's easy to forget that you even have a body.When you sit down it's important to relax into your body and to get in touch with what is going on. Starting with the top of your head, you can spend a few minutes bringing awareness to every part of your body. When you come to places that are hurting or tense you can breath in and out three or four times, keeping your awareness on that area. When you get to the soles of your feet you can stop or, if you feel like it, you can repeat this body sweep by going from bottom to top. Then at any time during your meditation period, you can quickly tune back into the overall sense of being in your body. For a moment you can bring your awareness directly back to being right here. You are sitting. There are sounds, smells, sights, aches; you are breathing in and out. You can reconnect with your body like this when it occurs to you梞aybe once or twice during a sitting session. Then return to the technique.In meditation we discover our inherent restlessness. Sometimes we get up and leave. Sometimes we sit there but our bodies wiggle and squirm and our minds go far away. This can be so uncomfortable that we feel it's impossible to stay. Yet this feeling can teach us not just about ourselves but also about what it is to be human. All of us derive security and comfort from the imaginary world of memories and fantasies and plans. We really don't want to stay with the nakedness of our present experience. It goes against the grain to stay present. There are the times when only gentleness and a sense of humor can give us the strength to settle down.

The pith instruction is, Stay. . . stay. . . just stay. Learning to stay with ourselves in meditation is like training a dog. If we train a dog by beating it, we'll end up with an obedient but very inflexible and rather terrified dog. The dog may obey when we say, "Stay!" "Come!" "Roll over!" and "Sit up!" but he will also be neurotic and confused. By contrast, training with kindness results in someone who is flexible and confident, who doesn't become upset when situations are unpredictable and insecure.So whenever we wander off, we gently encourage ourselves to "stay" and settle down. Are we experiencing restlessness? Stay! Discursive mind? Stay! Are fear and loathing out of control? Stay! Aching knees and throbbing back? Stay! What's for lunch? Stay! What am I doing here? Stay! I can't stand this another minute! Stay! That is how to cultivate steadfastness.Clear SeeingAfter we've been meditating for a while, it's common to feel that we are regressing rather then waking up. "Until I started meditating, I was quite settled; now it feels like I'm always restless." "I never used to feel anger; now it comes up all the time." We might complain that meditation is ruining our life, but in fact such experiences are a sign that we're starting to see more clearly. Through the process of practicing the technique day in and out, year after year, we begin to be very honest with ourselves. Clear seeing is another way of saying that we have less self-deception.The Beat poet Jack Kerouac, feeling primed for a spiritual breakthrough, wrote to a friend before he retreated into the wilderness, "If I don't get a vision on Desolation Peak, then my name ain't William Blake." But later he wrote that he found it hard to face the naked truth. "I'd thought, in June when I get to the top-and everybody leaves-I will come face to face with God or Tathagata (Buddha) and find out once and for all what is the meaning of all this existence and suffering-but instead I'd come face to face with myself, no liquor, no drugs, no chance of faking it, but face to face with ole Hateful . . . Me."Meditation requires patience and maitri. If this process of clear seeing isn't based on self-compassion it will become a process of self-aggression. We need self-compassion to stabilize our minds. We need it to work with our emotions. We need it in order to stay.When we learn to meditate, we are instructed to sit in a certain position on a cushion or chair. We're instructed to just be in the present moment, aware of our breath as it goes out. We're instructed that when our mind has wandered off, without any harshness or judgmental quality, we should acknowledge that as 'thinking" and return to the outbreath. We train in coming back to this moment of being here. In the process of doing this, our fogginess, our bewilderment, our ignorance begin to transform into clear seeing. "Thinking" becomes a code word for seeing "just what is"梑oth our clarity and our confusion. We are not trying to get rid of thoughts. Rather we are clearly seeing our defense mechanisms, our negative beliefs about ourselves, our desires and our expectations. We also see our kindness, our bravery, our wisdom.Through the process of practicing the mindfulness-awareness technique on a regular basis, we can no longer hide from ourselves. We clearly see the barriers we set up to shield us from naked experience. Although we still associate the walls we've erected with safety and comfort, we also begin to feel them as a restriction. This claustrophobic situation is important for a warrior. It marks the beginning of longing for an alternative to our small, familiar world. We begin to look for ventilation. We want to dissolve the barriers between ourselves and others.Experiencing our Emotional DistressMany people, including long-time practitioners, use meditation as a means of escaping difficult emotions. It is possible to misuse the label "thinking" as a way of pushing negativity away. No matter how many times we've been instructed to stay open to whatever arises, we still can use meditation as repression. Transformation occurs only when we remember, breath by breath, year after year, to move toward our emotional distress without condemning or justifying our experience.Trungpa Rinpoche describes emotion as a combination of self-existing energy and thoughts. Emotion can't proliferate without our internal conversations. If we're angry when we sit to meditate, we are instructed to label the thoughts "thinking" and let them go. Yet below the thoughts something remains梐 vital, pulsating energy. There is nothing wrong, nothing harmful about that underlying energy. Our practice is to stay with it, to experience it, to leave it as it is, without proliferating.There are certain advanced techniques in which you intentionally churn up emotions by thinking of people or situations that make you angry or lustful or afraid. The practice is to let the thoughts go and connect directly with the energy, asking yourself, "Who am I without these thoughts?" What we do with mindfulness-awareness practice is simpler than that, but I consider it equally daring. When emotional distress arises uninvited, we let the story line go and abide with the energy of that moment. This is a felt experience, not a verbal commentary on what is happening. We can feel the energy in our bodies. If we can stay with it, neither acting it out nor repressing it, it wakes us up. People often say, "I fall asleep all the time in meditation. What shall I do?" There are lots of antidotes to drowsiness but my favorite is, "Get angry!"Not abiding with our energy is a predictable human habit. Acting out and repressing are tactics we use to get away from our emotional pain. For instance most of us when we're angry scream or act it out. We alternate expressions of rage with feeling ashamed of ourselves and wallowing in it. We become so stuck in repetitive behavior that we become experts at getting all worked up. In this way we continue to strengthen our conflicting emotions.One night years ago I came upon my boyfriend passionately embracing another woman. We were in the house of a millionaire who had a priceless collection of pottery. I was furious and looking for something to throw. Everything I picked up I had to put back down because it was worth at least $10,000. I was completely enraged and I couldn't find an outlet! There were no exits from experiencing my own energy. The absurdity of the situation totally cut through my rage. I went outside and looked at the sky and laughed until I cried.In vajrayana Buddhism it is said that wisdom is inherent in emotions. When we struggle against our own energy we are rejecting the source of wisdom. Anger without the fixation is none other than mirrorlike wisdom. Pride and envy without fixation is experienced as equanimity. The energy of passion when it's free of grasping is discriminating awareness wisdom.In bodhichitta training we also welcome the living energy of emotions. When our emotions intensify what we usually feel is fear. This fear is always lurking in our lives. In sitting meditation we practice dropping whatever story we are telling ourselves and leaning into the emotions and the fear. Thus we train in opening the fearful heart to the restlessness of our own energy. We learn to abide with the experience of our emotional distress.

Attention to the Present MomentAnother factor we cultivate in the transformative process of meditation is attention to this very moment. We make the choice, moment by moment, to be fully here. Attending to our present-moment mind and body is a way of being tender toward self, toward other, and toward the world. This quality of attention is inherent in our ability to love.Coming back to the present moment takes some effort but the effort is very light. The instruction is to "touch and go." We touch thoughts by acknowledging them as thinking and then we let them go. It's a way of relaxing our struggle, like touching a bubble with a feather. It's a nonaggressive approach to being here.Sometimes we find that we like our thoughts so much that we don't want to let them go. Watching our personal video is a lot more entertaining than bringing our mind back home. There's no doubt that our fantasy world can be very juicy and seductive. So we train in using a "soft" effort, in interrupting our habitual patterns; we train in cultivating self-compassion.We practice meditation to connect with maitri and unconditional openness. By not deliberately blocking anything, by directly touching our thoughts and then letting them go with an attitude of no big deal, we can discover that our fundamental energy is tender, wholesome and fresh. We can start to train as a warrior, discovering for ourselves that it is bodhichitta, not confusion, that is basic.Pema Chödrön is a full-ordained Buddhist nun and the director of Gampo Abbey in Cape Breton, Nova Scotia. She is the author of The Wisdom of No Escape, Start Where You Are and When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times. This article is adapted from her Shambhala Publications book, The Places that Scare You: A Guide to Fearlessness in Difficult Times.

It's alot to read but it might help you to destress well try to read it ... I dunnoe will it work ... Lets try it out together !
Okays another than this i will update what i want to say maybe later ?
Seeya !

Yeah back to blogg !

2009-08-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

Haha , AT LAST MY COMPUTER IS FIXED because the internet got prob so need fix mah .... Took my sis so long norh ... TeeHee CAN PLAY LE I ALSO DUN MIND ! ;D eee why now the blog cnt putt photo deh ? just like 1 week never play jiu cnt put liaozz ? haizz ... thn too bad luh cnt put pictures liaozz if anyone noe's how to put picture must teach me ;D wahseh alot homework ... Today got oral walau damn scared sia .... I like errr ... this picture shows a scene at blah blah blah ... and the chinese one also ... Omg I scared sia teacher asked me thn i errrr ya .... picture conversation thn i like stunned ... Thn my heart boom boom boom boom .... Thn the teachers look at me like we starring atr each other .. HAHA ! Chinese one still okays luh ... the teachers very good . I go watch my zhong ji san guo le Bbye !

Prelims coming soon ... ._.

2009-07-11T12:29:00.004+08:00

Wahseh , prelims coming really getting more and more busy on school homeworks mans ! Still got extra tution & supplementry ..... But still very fun && happy even though we are tired ... This few months must CHIONG ! Left like about 3 more months mans .... Time really past very fast ..... I kept thinking that what if my friends leave me ... what if ..... I will damn miss them nehs ! Omg .... i cant imagine more thn that . Will i cry if i get my results ? TT ..... Haizzz ., Dun tok about this le . Haha getting more and more homeworks for weekends . Tomorrow going ViVo City with my friends so today must do finish all my homeworks ! Yeah i must enjoy all the days with them ;DDD ... If i leave school i will also miss Ms Chan ... Even though she scold me or things like that thats because she loved me ... So i gonna miss her too . I cannot let all her hardworks ruin so i must use action to pass ALL my EXAMS ! Thats all for today . Maybe tomorrow gonna write more ..... Thanks !
Bye-Bye !

Busy busy busy !!! D:

2009-07-07T17:29:00.003+08:00

Haha , getting busier and busier because exams around this corner !!! Haizzz .... Everyday got tution deh . Only sunday dun have . -_____- ! Haizzz ...... Must wait until get PSLE results jiu can relac liaozzz !! WOATTSSS ! #3 more months mans ! Scared scared one . I must get high for my chinese & maths to help my eng and sciiiiiiii ! Zzzz .... So now must JIAYOUS ! TT ...... So many homeworks waiting to be done . STRESS MANS ! Anne dying soon ~ ......... SO MANY TUTION SO MANY SUPPLEMENTRY SO MANY HOMEWORKS ! haizz tomorrow will write moreeee ...... Now go do homework liaozzz ! Bye Bye !

New Starting of School !!!! xDDD

2009-06-29T21:32:00.003+08:00

Yeah ~~ New Starting of School is quite fun . Haha . I can catch up with my work quite well man !!!!~ Haha too happy ! Yeah , I also did it on my own worhhhhh ! Haha xPPPPPPP ! Today was an unusual day because recess have to sit with classmates but not bad worh ! Miss Chan today cuteee luh ! Use the mickey mouse cup drink water or other things ...... Haha ! We tok tok eat eat very funnnn ! First time in my lifeeee ! ;DDDD After recess i have my chinese lessons on . Haha . I first go in kanna scolded first luh because of that shu hui luh ! UHHHHHHH !!!!!!! Very angry but i never scold her luh ! Anyway i shouldn't have shout isn't ? Anyway is my fault that i get myself in trouble . Haizzz anyway after awhile okays le teacher also never scold me le neh !!!! wooohoooo ! Sham woo-hoo ! Shook Woo-Hoo ! ;PPPPP ! Happy happy ! Then we have maths . Woo-Hoo Luvvccc maths mans !~ Haha ~ thn after maths got our lunch . Miss Chan go put her things in the stuff room just as Miss Chan was about to walk in YuHan pass by Miss Chan playing hp ? Thn Miss Chan hit her hand ( not pain one ) thn Miss Chan see her uniform bo name taggg thn ask her where her name tagggg ... Thn YuHan sayyy wait uhhh i check . Haha . Then Mrs Gey come out too bad luh Mrs Gey ask Miss Chan what happen thn she say YuHaN dun like her own name thn YuHaN say got meh ? Miss Chan say have . Then YuHan sayy ooooo rmb alr . Thn Miss Chan dunnoe whyy ask YuHan wear bikini . HAHA DAMN FUNNY LUH ! Plus our science enrichment teacher all there sia . Walau shameful luh ! OMG ! Haha write till here . Enjoy your day too !
Bye Bye !♥

2009-06-26T15:01:00.003+08:00

Haha , today actually was supposed to go out with Ahhhh Deee . Then he dunnoe say what want go out with friends or whatever deh . Then too bad luh never go out with him . Haha . Last night tok to him until 2.00am ++ . Haha , yesterday very funny laugh like crying thnn he ask me i crying or i laughing haha ~ Because when he do the *thingy* very funny luh ! So can.t stop laughing luh !~ Haha . Now toking to gan jie luh . She still ask me who i luvc ? LOL ! Because my msn put iluvcyou iluvcyou iluvcyou thn she tok i luvc one guy ~ HAHA ! ._. >< ! Haha now watching 原来我不帥very niceeeee ! ,33 Haha the lin jun jie not handsome thn the girl in the show that he *likes* say he very ugly , then he very sad . But after sometimes the girl want him to be her bestfriend . He very happily agreed . Hhaa ! But i still wanting to have the Boys Over Flowers CD & the song track . The Show Cd very expensive sia like about $40 ++ EX LUH ! Thn have to wait until the money lowered thn buy luh no choice . *-* SADDED LUHHHH !!! I WANTING TO BUY IT ! But when will the time comes ?!!!?!!!!?!!!! TELL ME ?!!!!! Uh when luh ? TT I WANT I WANT I WANT !!!! Waiting to buy ♥Kim Hyun Jooang , ♥Kim Sang Bum & ♥Lee Min Hoo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!♥ Haha wait wait wait ~~~~ okays luh write till here maybe later will continue ? Or maybe i continue tomorrow luh ! Cya ! Misses you all ! lots lots lots ♥ !
拜拜-ByeBye !♥

♥慧.Jo'Anne

2009-06-25T17:20:00.005+08:00

Hahah , my Dear ~ Pipi ! Haha cute rightttttttt ? Luvc him luh !
Misses Dear luh ! Zzz .. He went home a few days before ......

Haha now dun tok much just keep putting pictures luh . Because nothing to write mahs .

okays luh maybe tmr will post more .... Bye Bye !♥

H1N1 ~

2009-06-25T17:12:00.001+08:00

Haha , this few days also did nothing luh . So long bo bloggg liaoooo because uh too busy luh .

2009-06-17T14:21:00.005+08:00

Paiseh paiseh ! This few days didn't bloggggg . Because watching *Boys Over Flowers* !!!!! =D Haha ! Kim Sang Bum & Jihoo so handsome !!!!!!!! But JiHoo is after he had cut his hair thn handsome deh . >< !
Showing the phone that they had use when doing the show ~

He looking at something ~ Blehhhhhh .

I think he want show which handphone is nicer ....

He show four kind of his handsome face !

When he smiling ..... =DDDDD

When he got to meet his fans !!!! ARGHHHHH !!!!!

This pic i dunoe lehhhh , But i know he very handsome xD !

Showing the handphone agn ~

When he do the show someone took this picture .

He also meets his fans here !!!!!! =DDDDDD

*Boys Over Flowers* Really nice sia ! You all also must watch worh !

Love Kim Sang Bum !!!!!

2009-06-11T13:40:00.006+08:00

Haha , this few days watching Boys Over Flowers ~ >< ! HAHA ! I keep looking at Kim Sang Bum he looks Handsome & Cuteeeee sia . Feel like going in to give him a kiss ! ARGHHHH !!!!! TOOO HANDSOME ! If he were my boy i can die from it . HAHA !

김상범,사랑해요 !!!!!!

So HandSOME !!!!!!

*MUACKS* ~ !!!!!!!! ARGHHH !

I LOVE YOU MANNNNN !!!! x33

Feel like pinching your face ~

Pure ; Handsome

Pure ; Innocent Face & Cute SIA !

OMG I GONNA FAINT MAN !!! YOUR'RE MY NUMBER ONE ! KIM SANG BUM ! <33

Maybe this few days might be toking about Kim Sang Bum ><>

2009-06-03T21:30:00.006+08:00

Hellos . I forgot to introduce myself . Now i intro myself
Name : Joanne Lee Ying Hui
Birthday : 15 May 1997
Age : 12
School : Canossa Convent Primary School
Unattached / Attached : Not Attached But CRASH TT
Favourite colour : Purple , light pink , white , black , light green , red , light blue & gold . =D
Favourite food : -
What kind of guys do i like ?
I like gentleman , kind , very understanding , always give surprise , whenever i am sad he will always by my side , whenever i am happy he will also be happy , whenever i am angry he will try to make me laugh , he will always make up jokes to make me laugh , NOT TO BE FLIRT last but not least he will always luvv me .
Haha . I think i must get older then can come true .
Do i have any siblings ?
Yes , two elder sis .
Elder sis name : Gredine Lee Yun Rui
Birthday : 18 February 1991
Age : 18
School : Poly
I not sure which school she in >.<
Unattched / Attached : Attached
Boyfriend Name : Tan Chee Kian
Now is my second sis
Name : Jorean Lee Tzu Hsien
Birthday : 18 October 1995
Age : 13 going 14 =D
School : Macpherson Secondary School
Unattched / Attached : Attached
Boyfriend Name : Huang Jun Dong / Xiao Jd
Which school i would like to go to next year ?
Saint Anothny Canosian Secondary School . Because all my close friends going to that school thats why . xD
Thats The End Thanks Reading =D
Luvvvvvvvvvvv ,
Babygirl .